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Post by Alex Porter on Jun 23, 2014 22:37:17 GMT
Alex didn't know what to say at first, questioning time and time again how he was supposed to respond to someone who just said a family member died. He'd never been good with family death, or, well, even death. None of the family he knew had died, and even when someone he actually liked died, well, he preferred to bury those feelings so deep it'd take years to dig them back out again. No, death had never really been a thing Alex never coped with well.
"I - uh - that's shit man, I'm sorry," was all he managed at first, still trying to figure out how to respond, "but, it doesn't mean you should do this, alright? Nothing is ever worth this. It's fucked up and wrong, and trust me I know how horrible it feels to be that low, but it's not worth it... Just - promise me you won't do it again? I mean, I know you don't get what it means and everything, but you just have to trust me, okay?"
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Post by Ryan Carter on Jun 23, 2014 23:37:00 GMT
"Why? Why does it fucking matter? I'm gonna be dead in a week anyway!" Ryan sound. He hit the angry stage of being upset but he just started to cry more. Ryan buried his face in his head again. Ryan didn't like to talk to people when he was upset.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jun 24, 2014 23:35:19 GMT
"No - no you're not. I won't let that happen." Alex was still doing his best to comfort Ryan, although he was fairly positive all he was really managing to do was make it a whole lot worse. He wasn't good at this. He wasn't good at comforting anyone that wasn't Hunter - he didn't know how. Besides, when it came to Hunter, he usually just kissed the poor guy when he ran out of things to say, distracting him for long enough that he even dared to cheer up slightly. He couldn't kiss Ryan - they weren't technically together. Still, he was going to try his hardest to cheer him up, even if it meant actually trying to care for someone other than himself.
"Ryan, look at me-" he paused, leaning forward slightly to rest his hand on Ryan's leg, gently rubbing it with his thumb in a really bad attempt to be soothing, "you're not going to die, no one's going to kill you... And, before you tell me that I can't help or protect you or - or whatever, know that I broke into the highest level security offices of the Nut on more than one occasion, and, for the most part, protected my boyfriend from his dad, so I can probably handle it, okay? Okay." He didn't give Ryan a chance to respond to the okay, nodding his head as if he was trying to reassure himself that he was right - that he could do it.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Jun 26, 2014 3:08:37 GMT
"How do you know you can? I couldn't even protect my sister. Ryan said. He looked over at Alex. He knew Alex couldn't promise. There was no promising. He was probably going to die. That's what he felt like.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jun 29, 2014 22:46:16 GMT
"No offense Ryan," Alex began, knowing he was probably about to dig himself into an even bigger hole without even trying, "but I'm not you. I'm not weirdly innocent, and I'm not going to fail at something I've been doing for almost as long as I can remember. You're so blind to half the world, you can't possibly protect someone when you don't know most of the things you're meant to protect them from, right?" he paused for a minute, biting his lip nervously as he tried to think of something else to say, another way to be reassuring that wasn't just pointing out how little the guy knew to him. Shaking his head, he was almost tempted to just give up, thinking that the only thing he could think to do now was just kiss the guy, although he could already tell that'd help nothing.
"I mean - I've never been as sheltered as you, ever. I can protect you, but it won't work unless you trust me." Shrugging his shoulders, he lifted his arm off of Ryan's leg, pulling his arms closer to his chest nervously. He was definitely running out of things to say, and the state of Ryan's wrists were starting to drag up demons Alex would've rather stayed buried. The mere sight of them was almost suffocating, truth be told, but Alex was determined not to relapse, especially when he was already trying to kick the drug habit..
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Post by Ryan Carter on Jun 30, 2014 1:45:53 GMT
Ryan wiped his wrist on his jeans then rubbed his eyes. "But how can I trust you...you kissed me...and I heard you're not supposed to kiss guys...that its wrong...but yet you kissed me..." Ryan said. He had just remembered what he heard some homophobic peacekeeper say.
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