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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 4, 2014 22:21:41 GMT
Honestly, Alex had no idea how to respond, automatic instinct kissing Hunter back, easily slipping back to the way they used to be, where everything was easy (well, easier), and made some sort of sense, unlike now, which was just really messy. Hunter was now technically cheating on Logan, with Alex.. It made a nice change from Logan cheating on Hunter with Alex, but Alex knew better than to bring that up in conversation. Either way, he was fucked... And so was Hunter (and Logan, but Alex didn't really care about that bit). Still, Alex eventually pulled away from the kiss, admittedly feeling a little guilty for wishing he'd kiss him again, despite the fact Logan was still a thing.
"Why the hell do you do this to me?" Alex whispered eventually, eyes closing slowly as he rested his forehead against Hunter's, hand somehow managing to find Hunter's again whilst they were kissing. It was wrong, and Hunter and Logan didn't deserve to have Alex interfere the way he had with the pair of them, but it seemed to have happened anyway. "Why'd you let me pretend I was over it just to prove I'm not?"
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 4, 2014 22:37:34 GMT
Hunter rested his forehead against alex's. "I could ask you the same.." Hunter said not wanting to admit it. It was then he heard someone walking toward them.
Ryan was walking around when he saw Alex. He didn't say anything though, he was kinda scared to admit that it hurt him to see Alex kiss someone else. Ryan just went behind a tree when he saw the other guy look up.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 4, 2014 22:59:48 GMT
Alex's eyes opened again quickly as he felt Hunter's head move, following his gaze over to the direction of the trees out in front of them, feeling like he recognised the figure before it disappeared behind a tree. Honestly, Alex wasn't actually to fussed who it was, having already figured it probably wasn't Logan and, since he was technically the only one being betrayed right now, it's not like the mystery person could possibly end up upset, right? Slowly, he leaned slightly closer to Hunter again, knowing that this was possibly his last chance to ever say anything to Hunter before he swore it'd never happen again, and this time meant to.
"Hunter?" he asked quietly, trying to pull his attention back for a minute or two, "I do really fucking love you, y'know? More than Eric, and more than Jewel and more than Emily. I'll always fucking love you, even when you realise that you actually want nothing to do with me because you're actually happy with someone else. I just, uh, I wanted you to know." He offered Hunter a shy smile before looking away again, slight blush painting his cheeks.
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 4, 2014 23:03:52 GMT
Hunter looked at the ground. Tears threatened his eyes. He looked at Alex. "I wish we could've been together but life doesn't always work like that and I love Logan but I love you too. But we can't be together." Hunter said staring at the ground. Now he was crying.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 4, 2014 23:30:49 GMT
"Yeah, I, uh, I know. And I'm glad, really. I mean, Logan won't break your heart, he won't cheat on you and he definitely won't ever come to you and tell you he killed someone because, to be honest, the guy looks like he'd probably cry if someone even gave him a weapon, so... In all seriousness though, he won't fuck you up, and he won't screw with you half as much as I did, so I guess I have to at least pretend that I'm okay with you moving on and being with someone that will actually make you happy... Even if it kills me in the process." Shrugging slightly, Alex forced a weak smile for Hunter, knowing that half the things he'd said were killing him already, even if they were true. Alex would only ever be bad news for Hunter, toxic, even. But then again, he doubted he'd ever be anything more than that for anyone else either.
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 4, 2014 23:34:28 GMT
"Yeah and one day you're gonna find that. You'll find someone who loves you for everything you are." That was Hunter though he loved Alex for everything he was. He looked at Alex. He gave him half a smile. "You should visit Grace...she misses you." Hunter said.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 4, 2014 23:45:36 GMT
Alex just sighed, shaking his head as he pulled away from Hunter slightly, biting his lip before replying slowly,"I don't want that. Sure, someone might one day love me for everything I am, but that just means that I'm going to hurt them too, just like I did to you, and Jewel, and Bliss, and everyone else that I screwed over. I don't want anyone to love me, because as soon as they do that they're going to be hurt by me, and I can't do that. I'm fucking sick of being the reason for everyone's problems." He shook his head again, watching Hunter intently as if he expected the guy have some sort of rebuttal to his words, just like always. He hoped he did, anyway - he'd missed this. He'd missed Hunter.
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 5, 2014 1:50:03 GMT
"You won't hurt someone on purpose. You never do. The next person, they could love you with everything they have. Love is powerful and although it's not perfect you and I both know it's the best feeling in the world. And you can't deny that so don't tell me you don't want that." Hunter said.
Ryan felt like a stalker standing there, we'll more like he felt odd. He didn't know what a stalker was so he couldn't feel it. He could hear them though and he began wondering what they were talking about. He remembered a lot of things but more importantly his mind was screaming that it was wrong to love another guy just like how the person had told him.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 5, 2014 18:50:07 GMT
"I, uh-" Alex began, but was cut off by the movement of something in the trees, the rustling of leaves suggesting that they weren't alone. Fuck. He lifted his head quickly, gaze brushing the trees as he attempted to figure out exactly who was watching them. It couldn't be Logan. It couldn't. If it was, they were both dead. Well, Hunter was, anyway, Logan already hated his guts - wasn't much Alex really had to lose if Logan turned up. He put his finger over Hunter's lips gently, not even realising he was doing it until he glanced back down at Hunter, quietly whispering to him, "I don't think we're alone." Looking up at the bushes again, he called out, "Hello?"
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 5, 2014 19:01:43 GMT
Ryan didn't come out when someone asked called out. Ryan was kinda afraid to. He probably should've ran when he had the chance but he didn't and that was his fault.
Hunter looked toward the bushes. He was hoping it wasn't Logan because he knew he'd be dead. Hunter was beginning to panic the voice I his head screaming it was Logan.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 5, 2014 20:03:51 GMT
Alex's gaze dropped from the bushes back to Hunter, having already concluded that if he was worried about Logan turning up, Hunter most definitely was too. Running his thumb over Hunter's cheek gently, he dared to press a kiss to lips, doing his best to calm his nerves. It probably wouldn't help, he knew that, but for some reason it just felt right. "Don't worry, alright? If it was him, he'd have felt the need to interrupt already - you know how much he hates me." He grinned, slowly pulling away from Hunter to stand up, determined to figure out exactly who it was that'd been hiding. It must be someone they knew, or they wouldn't have stayed to watch, right? Whoever it was, staying to watch was pretty sick, right? Moving over to where the noise was, he honestly wasn't surprised to find Ryan sat behind a bush. He didn't know how to react at first, honestly not sure why he was even there. "Ryan, what the fuck are you doing here?" was all he managed to say, brow furrowing slightly with confusion.
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 5, 2014 20:24:51 GMT
Ryan heard Alex come closer and began to panic. He was unable to find his voice for a moment. "I don't really know," ryan eventually set on. "I'm - uh - I'm sorry I should go." Ryan said not sure what else to say.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 5, 2014 21:02:44 GMT
Alex just sighed, taking a step back so Hunter could see him from the clearing if he really wanted to, trying to get Ryan to follow his lead so that Hunter could tell that it wasn't Ryan and that he wasn't about to be killed for cheating. Running his hand through his hair, he bothered to flash a cheeky smile at Ryan before finally breaking the silence that had built up after Ryan had spoken. "You know, watching two guys together doesn't diffuse the idea that you are, uh, gay."
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Jul 5, 2014 21:59:26 GMT
"I - I umm..." Ryan wasn't sure what to say. "I thought you aren't supposed to kiss people without having a relationship. " Ryan said. He wasn't sure what else to say.
Hunter say too up and went toward Alex. He looked at the kid then at Alex. "Who's this..?" Hunter asked confused.
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Post by Alex Porter on Jul 5, 2014 23:41:57 GMT
"You're not - it's complicated," Alex explained, or, at least, tried to. He'd explain later, he decided, if Ryan and he even actually ended up having a proper conversation again after last time's revelation that he was, in fact, homophobic. Alex was determined that he didn't really think that way, obviously, but the kid seemed very impressionable - so impressionable that Alex was sure he could probably persuade him that the earth was flat if he really wanted to. He was fairly sure that if he and Ryan had met when they were younger, it was almost certain Alex probably would've bullied him relentlessly.
"This is Ryan," Alex added quickly, this time explaining to Hunter rather than Ryan, "he saved my life so I fucked him and then he decided he was going to be horribly homophobic, so what can you do?" He shrugged lightly, a clear joking tone in his voice, even though everything he'd just said was true. Still, it was kind of funny to think about it all, on recollection. After a pause to look between the pair of them, Alex continued to talk to Hunter, his gaze slowly drifting back to Ryan in the process, "it's okay though, he'll come round." Throwing a cheeky wink in Ryan's direction, Alex shoved his hands in the back pockets of his jeans, rocking lightly on the balls of his feet.
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