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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 6, 2014 1:54:59 GMT
Azalea hadn't slept in a bed by herself in four years. But now that Everson was gone, she was plagued with the night terrors that had always come for her before she'd fallen in love with the man. Only now they were so much worse than they ever had been before. Every night should would wake up clawing at her sheet and screaming or crying for someone to help her. Her sisters had gotten so tired of it that they'd gone to stay at a friends house for the night, and they'd taken Flynn with them. They tried to tell her that her anxiety was too bad for her to be caring for her son, but there wasn't any chance that she was going to let anyone take her from him. The little boy was the only thing she had left that really mattered to her. It may not have been what was best for him, but Azalea didn't care.
A scream ripped through the Rhodes household, and Azalea woke up sure that there was something attacking her. After realizing that she really was alone, she lie in her bed staring at the ceiling, breathing heavily. She turned to try and sleep, and reached out expecting there to be another body there, but all there was was empty space. The realization that Everson really was gone would hit her harder and harder every time it happened. This time it hurt so bad that Azalea felt like she wanted to die. Normally she would go down the hall and wake Starla up, but tonight she wasn't there. So Azalea took her phone from her nightstand and called the only person she could think of that might actually listen to her at this time of night. But Ryan didn't answer, so Azalea just started crying and rambling into his answering machine. "Ryan....He's gone....Everson's really gone...Why did he leave?....What did I do to make him leave me?...I just don't understand anything anymore...I want to be gone...I just want to be gone." Then the answering machine ran out of time, which left Azalea rambling to no one, unable to pull herself together.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Nov 6, 2014 2:03:41 GMT
Ryan was cuddling with Logan when he heard his phone go off. He decided to ignore it until he got a voicemail and listened to it. He quickly shot up. "I have to go Logan I um it's an emergency." Ryan said on the verge if crying. He was scared he'd lose Aza. Luckily they were in district twelve because Ryan wanted to be close to Aza.
Ryan came to the door and loudly knocked on it. "Aza it's me it's Ryan." Ryan said. He continued to knock waiting for an answer and feeling completely terrified that she wasn't answering. "Aza!" He yelled out occasionally he was gonna find a way to break in a moment.
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 6, 2014 2:42:21 GMT
Azalea sat in her bed sobbing for a long time, though she wasn't sure exactly how long it was. She thought about taking the knife from the kitchen and slitting her wrists, but the thought of Flynn kept bringing her away from that idea. He was the only thing she had left to live for. If she ever lost his for some reason, she'd be broken beyond repair.
She didn't hear the beating on the door at first, but then she snapped back to reality for long enough to hear Ryan calling to her. A wave of relief fell over her to have someone there with her. Racing to the door, she opened it and then practically threw herself into Ryan's arms. Sobs fell into the boy's shoulder, and every time Azalea tried to say anything, she couldn't pull herself together long enough to get the words out.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Nov 7, 2014 1:45:00 GMT
Ryan quickly wrapped his arms around his best friend. "It's okay." Ryan said softly. He hugged her tightly to show he was there. Honestly he just wanted to punch Everson but Ryan was weak and he didn't like being mean even if that person was mean. "We should get inside," Ryan said quietly.
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 7, 2014 1:59:26 GMT
Azalea nodded, then released Ryan and headed back inside her home. "They all left me," she said as she sat down on the couch. "Even my own sisters down want to be around me. What's wrong with me, Ryan?" Azalea didn't understand why she kept turning people away. All she ever wanted was to be loved and love back. But her mental stability kept her from being able to do that.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Nov 7, 2014 2:04:04 GMT
"Nothing is wrong with you Aza. You sound like me when I told you being gay was wrong," Ryan said quietly. He looked over. At her concerned. "Where's flynn?" He asked. If he was here he was gonna check on him. He wiped a tear trailing down Aza's face.
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 7, 2014 2:12:21 GMT
"Starla took him with her. She doesn't think I can take care of him," she said. Azalea put her head in her hands, trying to wrap her head around everything that was happening. "I just want everything to go back to how it was," she said to no one in particular. Her time with Everson was the only time in her life that she was ever truly happy. She thought she was happy with Axel, but she knew now that she was just telling herself something that wasn't true. Everson was different. He loved her, even with her flaws. But now he was gone, and now she was broken.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Nov 7, 2014 2:15:57 GMT
"It will just give if time." Ryan said quietly. "It's still taking me time to get used to being here and to not being with the kidnapper and with my sister being dead but it's suddenly becoming more normal and I'm happier and you will be too." Ryan said quietly. Ryan wasn't very goo at helping so he was doing the best he could.
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 7, 2014 2:21:25 GMT
"But how?" she said, looking up at Ryan again. "Everson is gone. He's gone and he's not coming back. What am I supposed to do without him?" Azalea wasn't much of an independent spirit. At least, not anymore. She used to be the kind of girl who didn't need anyone or anything to hold her up, but now? Well, now she couldn't be by herself without wanting to slit her wrists and end it all.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Nov 7, 2014 2:25:17 GMT
"Because you'll find someone new. Someone who truly cares and won't be a dick and leave." Ryan said. He looked at her and smiled a small smile. "And unto then you'll have your friends, your sister and Flynn to help you." Ryan said quietly. "Seal care about you."
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 7, 2014 2:38:18 GMT
Azalea sighed. "But what if I don't?" she said. "Every person who has ever cared about me is either gone or starting not to care anymore. Axel fucking hates me. Everson left me. Starla and Charity think I'm insane. Even my own father gave up hope for me. I'm a disaster, Ryan!" Sobs poured out of the petite girl, and she folded her knees to her chest, hugging them tight as if it would provide some sort of comfort.
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Post by Hunter Hanson on Nov 7, 2014 20:06:51 GMT
"I'm still here..." Ryan said quietly. "And Flynn..." Ryan said. Maybe he could help Aza look at it more positively even if he didn't think she would. He looked over At Aza he looked like a sad puppy dog because of how bothered he looked by the fact Aza was upset and he couldn't think of how to help. Logan was better at stuff like this Ryan sucked at it.
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 8, 2014 3:35:27 GMT
Azalea leaned her head on Ryan's shoulder. "Thank you," she said quietly. Then she decided to just enjoy the silence and attempt to clear her head. Though, this definitely wasn't easy for Azalea. "What if I never find anyone like him ever again?" she asked, as if Ryan actually knew the answer. The future was something that terrified Azalea, and she never knew what to do when she thought about it. It was just a big black void that provided no answers to her questions.
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Post by Ryan Carter on Nov 17, 2014 13:33:48 GMT
"You will," Ryan said he wrapped his arm around Aza. "And he'll be more amazing and he'll be there for you more. You can't let yourself going insane," Ryan said softly. He didn't know what else to say ryan was always the person getting helped not the one helping. He didn't have enough life experience to actually help somebody.
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Post by Azalea Rhodes on Nov 17, 2014 14:43:30 GMT
"I just don't know anymore, Ryan," Azalea said, then began crying again. She felt like wasn't herself anymore. She was just living her life the way she had to to get by with no real personality or soul. There was nothing to hold on to anymore. But maybe she could find herself again. Just maybe.
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